An idiot

My name is Kashaf Bin Shamim, This is my story when i was 17years old, I am from Bodhgaya. Today is my first day in college, mid of January 2012, & as such, I am very excited. 

I chose to study BBM in a college in Gaya. I am in classroom looking at other students with whom i shall be studying for next 3 years and all are looking happy & excited as myself. Teacher is about to inter in the classroom. As  he came we greeted him and he introduced himself to us, i don't want to mention his real name so let me give him another name, say his name is Hitler because he looks like Hitler and he is short in height and short temper too like Hitler. He started giving lectures after greeting us students. He started his lecture by saying all boys and girls who came here to study for three years in this government college, you students don't try to be smart or don't think you are rich, you guyz are poor, your parents are poor that's why you came here in this government college. After listening to his starting lecture , excitement and happiness of all the students in the classroom was gone & nobody could understand where? I was shocked & stunned to hear this ridiculous starting speech of my respected Professor Hitler & that i will have to deal with Professor  like him who make us feel afraid and insult our parents which he has no right for next three years. Thereafter he told that he will teach economics and quantative method. So this was my first day in college where in the beginning i was very happy and excited but when the teacher spoke in this manner all my happiness transformed into fear and guilt. Days went by &  another Professor Kallu  @Kaliya (name changed) came. He always used to put a fake smile on his face and was mostly talking in wrong English.He was professor of principles and pratices of managment of which he had very faint knowledge and in order to hide his deficiency/inefficiency, he was bulling the students and disturbing us trying to show us that he is the boss and we have to study in his terms as he teaches, but whatever he Professor Kaliya or Professor Hitler have taught us they never understood it themselves  and told us to follow. How could we understand that what they themselves didn`t understand. They taugh us time management but they themselves did not follow time management as they had no time & were always busy so it was very strange for me to understand their teachings. They were telling us to memorize  everything without understanding just to pass the exam. Once a student was disturbing the class he was playing some songs then hitler came to him grab him from his hair and pull him to the front desk and insulted him, the boy did wrong but he had the courage and energy to do wrong hitler should have taught him to use his energy in right direction. That day i was looking at the boys eyes he was very nervous, afraid and felt insulted after that day i never saw him in class, he always was in confidence but from that day he changed his confidence gone and he never attended class after that day. I always used to think about him and felt sorry for what he have been through and i was afraid for myself too. There i was learning mostly fear, there were some good teachers too there but very few who were motivating us. Some have advised me to read Phillip Kottlers marketing management book which helped me to understand the differece between marketing and sales, marketing means winning customers good will, customer comes first and sales means con the customer and sell him/her the product at any cost, profit comes first. There are many things to learn in this book i suggest you to study this book if you want to be an entepernur or businessman. One of my favourate professor suggested me to read the book The Alchemist by Paulo Cohelo. It is a great book about the hidden tresure in us. Once i was coming in class i was using headphone and was listening Jiddu Krishnanmurtis audiobook "Freedom from the known" on this J.K Murti told that when you divide yourself in religon, caste, culture or country, you divide yourself from the whole. While listening this great book suddenly from my back Hitler approached me and said to me in loud voice in front of many juniors and seniours, he said what do you think you owns this college? 

He said you are nothing just a student i am the boss here, he should have told me this in decent and polite way but he was full of ego, i already was afraid from beggining and now i felt more fear. I thought i lives in a free world if i am doing nothing wrong with anyone i can live my life on my terms but he proved me wrong, because of this insult in front of juniors and seniours i felt that i am in jail this is not a college. Days were passing i started sitting in back bench so no one can disturb me but i was aware of the moment i was observing whats going on in the class room, after few months in college i understood that those boys who already are good in studies have managed and they were respected by all professors but us the last benchers only few teachers were not dividing us from the whole they were telling us that all of us are important and unique but for hitler and few other teachers we all students were materials, not only students but humans were materials for them. Hitler always told us life is all about hard work, but i used to think if i have brain why should i do hard work. Once hitler was talking about vegeterian, eggitarin and non-vegeterian and he directly insulted the vegeterian and eggiterian he said they are fools, i don't understand why he said that how he dared to say that. For me i always use to think that i am right but it dosen't means others are wrong coz i knew there life experience and beliefs are different but they also are right only our ways are different.
During my BBM i understood that professors here are talking about competition because they always used to teach us that our college is best and they were competiting and comparing with other colleges, they always taught us our department is best and we started to do competition with other departments. When there is fairwell or freshers party we starts fighting with each others.
This college were treating us as school students always ruling on us. They should respect and support us we were not kids we were matured. They should understand that we too have feelings we too have heart, we too have life but they were prisoner of their own ego i feels sorry for them. Somehow i completed BBM with good marks, after BBM i thought now i will do MBA from some good college in Delhi

To be continued...